I’ve been married 3.5 years (together for 9) to a wonderful man. We have a 2 year old son. And what seems to everyone a happy family. My husband has a heart of gold and works so hard to keep us financially secure. I don’t want to leave him. I don’t want to hurt him. But… I’m so bored. Every day is so monotonous. I really don’t think motherhood and married life suits me, It’s so mundane. I’m not sexually satisfied by my husband and haven’t been for ages and probably never will be again. The thought of this being the rest of my life makes me want to run away. I started cyber sexting guys (all knew i am married) to try and get some thrills. But they were short lived and now i want more. I’ve never so much as kissed another guy in all this time and i didn’t think id ever want to. But now i do. And I don’t know what to do. Is it ever ok to cheat? Is this really my life forever? I’d appreciate hearing from people who have been through it, both victims and perpetrators.