I am a 30 something single (most of the time) intelligent, successful male. I have been on my current job as a flight attendant for 5 years. To make a long story short I have been dating one of my pilots for about a year and a half and he is married. His wife is a sweetheart and I have tried numerous times to break it off because I was not raised to mess with anyone’s husband or significant other and maybe I am making this situation more complicated than it really is. The way this affair started is so weird. The pilot and I would talk, usually after late night flights over dinner and drinks and he always had these sad stories, which now I feel was a plot to gain my sympathy, and I was a confidant and counselor to put it mildly. Then he started giving me cash, staying in my hotel (after a late night of talking) and gifts –> you name it, I got it! Until finally after about a year of gifts, he asked me to dinner, with no strings attached, at least that’s what he said. Well I went to dinner with him and need I say more, a year later I am singing this song. To be honest, I’ve been gay since I can remember, and never had an interest in straight..and especially MARRIED men!! He makes me feel like the man I know I am… honestly, he didn’t seem gay, doesn’t have an issue with my ways at all, and I don’t even think anyone would ever know. The thing is… it isn’t right! Nothing about it is right. The advances, the money and gifts, the vacations all feel good for the moment but afterwards I feel like a prostitute! I can’t help but wonder what I would do if my dad was doing something like this to my mom. I know better and have tried numerous times to tell this man I don’t want to do this because there is no future in us. I also honestly tell him I want the best for his marriage but it seems he just don’t care about anything but himself and I don’t know what to do except change jobs. I avoid phone callsand especially flights that he’s on.. but so many times I don’t know until it’s too late. I feel like every Monday morning the cycle restarts. I feel like I am depriving myself of a real relationship with a single and available gentlemen dealing with this guy. I want to be married some day and I know I will reap what I have sown and I am willing to except and deal with that because there is no way around it. BUT I want to allow room for my mate (the one God has destined for me) to come with no hindrances. Please help a brother out that is really trying to do what is morally right!
ALEX AND MJ… PLEASE HELP!! I hope y’all read this because I can usually only listen on podcast, and y’all need to go back to reading letters everyday! I get my whole life!!!
Not a prostitute but feeling like one in the South