I’m approaching my one year anniversary on December 31st and I really think I’m in love. It seems like every thought about being “scared” of love is coming to my mind. I’ve listened to every song from Scared of Lonely by Beyoncé to Rihanna’s Stupid in Love and I think I’m internally freaking out. I guess you could say I’m one of those people that doesn’t think marriage is for everyone and o don’t even feel pressured to go that route, but bae is excited about one year and keeps mentioning it. I don’t want to do something stupid like getting involved with someone else just because I’m nervous, but I’ve definitely thought about it. My narrow minded friends can’t understand — and when I told them that they were just like “bro how could you want to cheat when everything is perfect?” That’s not it. That’s not it at all. I feel like if I just hung out with someone else I would take the pressure off of me and sometimes I just feel like I’m not ready for this type of love. Hell, maybe I need to listen to some India Arie and get ready. I really want to talk to someone that has been this far in a relationship before (maybe more than a year but had the same feeling) and thought about just messing it up out of fear that things were too right or the fact that they just weren’t ready. Clearly, I can’t even sleep since I started feeling like this. I just need some help. Maybe a shrink. I’ll be listening until y’all read this one, because I need this help. Neeed!