You would think that in today’s day; I wouldn’t be afraid to say this. But – I am. I’ve been dating the same girl for almost a year, and I have never intentionally cheated on her. I have just found myself in a few; precarious, or maybe really freaky situations that have apparently screwed me. I’m still in my twenties, so who doesn’t enjoy a good threesome or ‘friendly’ foreplay with friends when drunk? I found out a couple of days ago that I have gonorrhea, and that I may have had it for quite some time. I’m freaked. Me and my girl have unprotected sex regularly. I’ve constantly been thinking about WHY we have unprotected sex, and why I don’t just wrap up after all of the warning signs I hear about. You know, you never think that it will be “you.”
Anyway, I never had any symptoms. My doc told me that my girl is likely really infected and that I need to bring her in to get tested. He also told me that my chances for HIV infection are greater since I’ve been carrying this around for a few months. I don’t know how to tell her. I feel like she’s going to KILL me, and I do mean that. If I didn’t have symptoms, she might not either? What if I just leave it alone? I don’t know my HIV test results yet, but I’ve been nervous to even sleep with her since then.